Crap CAN Turn into Smiles

I can't believe we are into May now. The oldest is home and our extra leaves soon. Lots of changes are on the way. Summer guests start arriving the first day of summer vacation (for the kids), summer sports schedules are beefing up already, a couple of the kids leave on a Mission Trip one week into summer, an athletic camp the second week, an academic camp the third week, and more to follow. I still don't have a summer vacation planned (the cabin we wanted wasn't available) so I have no idea when or if (if is looking more likely as bills pour in with no relief in sight). Friends are moving or moving furniture right and left, and I feel like I'm trapped in time and I can't catch up. I guess that means it really is summer. I think I finally lost it at work. Twice in 2 days time I made comments out loud that would indicate my frustration level with certain individuals. The first I had no idea I said out loud until I saw the expression on somebody's face and the second I didn't realize the location of where I said it (thankfully no one was around except the person to whom I was speaking). It's just the idea of me losing that much control. I don't even think I was tired. Maybe feeling a bit stretched, but not tired. I love most of the people I work with, they are hard working, respectable people...there for all of the right reasons. For the most part I couldn't hand pick a better group of people. I just can't stand it when people don't do their share, worse yet when they pretend to AND take credit for it. I just need to learn to accept it and stop expecting people to make efforts. Tough to lower ones expectations, especially when you love what you are doing and the majority of people you are working with. Home is pretty ok, mostly wonderufl with a little bit of crap--so I guess normal. A little of an adjustment with Joaners coming home, but the biggest adjustment is the intrusion on our life by a loved one, crazy how that can happen. Don't think she even realizes it, just trying to re-establish her control. It's sad, to watch so much progress go down the drain. It makes me ask a lot of why's. I won't get into them here, just needed to vent a little. It's the bestest of the best that keep me going. My immediate family and my very good friends. So a thank you to all of you, you know who you are and how you make my life so much better. I was reading a book recently (I know you are all shocked on this piece of news). For the record, this was a work of literature, not a self-help book. Excellent author and pretty darn good book. It was talking about as you go through life you have to juggle 5 balls. 4 of the balls are glass and one is rubber. Work is the rubber ball. Can anyone guess what the remaining balls are, remember, they are all glass. I'll give you a hint on 2 of the balls. Those of you reading this make up two of the glass balls. The point is that there are special, fragile parts of life that you should treat as such and if something has to give, it's that rubber one, it'll survive a fall or some rough handling. Now that I have been insightful, it's time to say TTFN! Love you (and thanks for being there for me), J